Bestfriend 89..

To my dearest friends ,
                        Jenny and Lys





Somehow, its such a memories..


       Tadi, buka Fb page..Roll.roll,roll..Stadaaaa...Bestfriend 89..Hmmm,Lama xbuka that page..How are you ? my old old friend.


           Let me introduced you..This lively gang had me, Jenny, and lys..We know each other since we 13 years old..That means its been 10 years OREDY ??!!!!


Then , lets start the story begins..Somehow , I never talked about this things to other my friend ( Have i freddy ? )

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         Its my first day as a highschooler. On that time im 13 years old..The school yg I attended is the biggest school on that district since the students that studying in thereis about almost two thousand in numbers..Ma..ma..


         Then, I've assigned to B class..my cousin aka my the very best friend time sekolah rendah admitted to A class.. So, with that case i should find another friend !!


         Post individual introduction, I came to this girl..Her have a  unique name.. Lystyana.and that sound kinda  beautifull ? at first i approached her, she look kind of scared of me..Haha, agaknya i approach macam samseng kut..Muahaha..I ask if she had sister attending this school..I guess she relieved bila know my real intention..


I dont really know how we get close and befriend..But, she's really good friend .


          The second one is Jennyvia. She have a twins named Jessica. Well,there's an incident yg membawa this nurse to them..At first,I closed with the older. sitting next to her but she more likely friendly to Calla, the one yang duduk depan her.And her younger sister lagi suka to converse with me..Maka,berlakulah apa yang patut berlaku..


           The fourth is Illa..I dont really remember how we befriend.,.As i remember, Jennyvia is the first one yg close to her..Well,since jenny is our friend then we consider Illa as our bestfriend too.Is she a new transferred student ? Is she changing course to our class ? I do not remember..Seriously..


            Me is pembuli,Lys too..Tapi, she ways to lighthearted to Jenn and Illa. Jenny is lemah lembut type.Illa is gadis manja.


           On that time, This nurse somehow mengeluh when comes to study.. Im not saying that im budak pandai but, when Jenny , Lys and Illa cant keep up the subject , I just dont like it..why? Mungkin sebab this nurse tidak seronok..Like there's no enjoy feeling when there's is a gap between us..Mungkin sebab my friends waktu sekolah rendah budak pandai from tahun satu till tahun enam..Macam....You got no friend to challenging each other..However, I just love to be with them..
       
      Once I ask them about, "kalau korang naik plane and have a crush.which option you gonna choose,died when the plane meletup di udara or you died when the plane jatuh atas pokok or whatever?
Lys then ask me and i said " I'd rather died masa the plane meletup because i'd no chance to feeling pain "


      Which mean, im not ready to any kesakitan..Hahaha..Betullah kepala budak2...What greats about it, Lys ask me the exact Q's after long time passed.And me,dont even remember..On that time, i feel so ashamed.


      When we form three, I transferred to labuan for a year and going back to the old school the year after.


      We assigned to different course and classes for sure. Im in  Sains perakaunan class, Lystyana in  Kemanusiaan & sains sukan,  Illa  in ikhtisas and Jenny in sastera.


      When the year started ,im the busiest one sebab there's a lot of subject yg new to me and pretty hard . well ,I hate the perakaunan the most. When i said mau pindah to Sains pertanian like my third sister,for sure...the eldest and the second opposed..The eldest give me choice if im willing to change classes , I can only go for science stream or sains kejuruteraan..Ngaaaaaaa...And my second saids, I should belajar untuk suka the subject..In the end,this nurse xjadi pindah..


      Back to the story.. Since im busy to study ( Perasan ) , Lys and Jenny will come to my class setiap kali rehat untuk berbual. Then we, sometimes go to Illa classroom...As i assumed, Illa somehow kind of forgetting us? She always no there for us and lagi suka hanging out with her new friends. Rasa kecil hati tu ada, tapi tak apa lah..Mungkin itu biasa sebab kitaorang lain kelas,so the schedule pun berbeza..Jenny told me yang the time I was at Labuan, Illa selalu merajuk sebab get not enough attention from Jenny and Lys so that she tried to find another friends and ignore them sometimes in awhile.. My sabar is still there until the festival things..The three of us tried to berkumpul but Illa dont do the Rq from me..


     Really, she pissed me off..Then i said for the last time if she not come to see us then our friendship is finished..Then thats really happen..On the next day, I heard of story from Jenny yang she crying..Me? just buat bodoh, Why should I..Heartbroken !!  Since that day, I never talked about that to them..Jenny kadang2 sebut nama her but,that not my business..If you ask why'd I do that..I said this ILLA " I just hate when you do to Jenny and Lys.. Kalau you willing to do those things to me, its fine..I know me..But not them..Thats all.Im not going to says sorry for you. Kirim salam! "


     Why did I do that ? For sure, I cant stand how'd she treat Lys and Jenny.. I know Im not as good as how they care but at least I tried my best to luangkan masa bersama2.. At least dapat 15min pun dah kira ok..


      Its getting worsen when we cont our study in form six..Especially when I get involved with this DEWAN REFLEKSI PELAJAR things. Once , I ask them both how busy i am..They said yang I busy tahap overload sampaikan bila diaorang cari me during classes pun im not there.. Im not saying yang our freind relationship ada masalah tapi the time is just menghalang us to do our private activities..


    And the bad is when i got offer to study nursing there at Tawau. I havent say goodbye for them,still they still support me. I guess this just how our friends thing flows..I  know we care each other sebab Jenny and Lys always contacting me untuk tanya khabar and always asking my opinion when needed..


    Deep inside in my heart, rasa bersalah come first for both of them sebab I always do things yg berbeza dengan diaorang yet they still understand me..


     We dont even have one single photo to prove yg we're friends but i guess this is just tighten our friend bond..


    Somehow , I express my love for you ( Jenny and Lys ) here for always be there for walaupun waktu menghalang us to be together..


   Haha..Sorry, im not good in english yet still writing and ranting with my grammer yang berterabur..The meaning is more important than others..
     

  LETS US TREASURE OUR MEMORIES

Sincerely , 

aayie..

Alaaaaa......

          Malas...Bukan, Penat pun bukan....Semalan this nurse having a talk with her sister..Sebab apa ? Bukan masalah besar mana pun, tapi nak bagitau hasrat pindah tempat kerja.. Payah sangat ke nak lepaskan adik U ni ketempat lain.


Cut :

This nurse : Kak.........
Sis : Mmmm...Apa ? 
This nurse : Im thinking of pindah tempat kerja..
Sis : Where ?
This nurse : Beluran..

           And her instant reaction...

Sis : Sandakan kan.. Jauh tu..Payah nanti balik ke rumah..Lagipun, orang mahu tempat dekat..yang kau pilih ke sana buat apa ?

          This nurse speechless...

Sis : What is your reason ?
This nurse : Saja- saja..My friend pun ada sana juga..(Tau,kalau i said nak pindah ke kg halaman..Mesti my sis terus setuje seratus peratus times 2 lagi )

            Well ,kalau tanya pun memang tiada alasan kuat untuk pindah di pedalaman pun..Its true yang tempat kerja this nurse sekarang ni pun this nurse rasa masih enjoy..Bz,memang bz tapi perasaan seronok kerja tu ada..Here, I lived with my sisters..My family pun tinggal di kampung yg if I go back driving pun just two hours to arrived.



            Kalau orang lain read this entry pun mungkin akan cakap me as a crazy person..Semua benda yg orang lain dream of , This nurse dapat yet willing to pindah di tempat yang kurang kemudahan..

Bodoh ke? 

       No la....

Masa study dulu pun memang dah bercita- cita nak kerja di pedalaman sebab ...........

1) Boleh dapat elaun lebih (haha...Materialistik )
2) Klien a.k.a pun kurang (Pemalas )
3) So, besar kemungkinan boleh goyang kaki ( Best ! )
4) Im pretty bad untuk dealing dgn orang,so its just suit me. ( Im  Introvert )

            Tapi sebenarnya deep inside is, Im just looking for PENGALAMAN ..Sementara masih ada masa..Sementara masih muda dan ada peluang.. This remind me pasal my conversation with my love ( Uwekk !! )  



Cut : 

This nurse : IF...someday kita jadi kawin and i got to cont my study..Are willing to let me  ?

        Dia jawab relaks je..

Him : NO !

          Amboi.......

This nurse : Kenapa pula..Bukannya saya saja2 untuk enjoy..
Him : Ya, nanti sudah kahwin and U r not here..So, Siapa nak layan me..

         Erkkk..Betul juga..Im a wife dan memang itulah tugas this nurse yang sepatutnya.

This nurse : Kalau macam tu nanti lah kita kahwin..Lepas habis study..( Cerdik je jawapan )
Him : Aik ?
This nurse : Paling lambat pun mungkin 30..( Itupun, InsyaAllah kalau rezeki murah )
Him  : Jangan lupa, kita ni satu umur..



           Tang2 tu juga rasa masa ada batu hempap atas kepala..Haha..Kenapa ?
Sebab boleh2 terlupa umur dia..Betul juga apa yang dia cakap..


           And I ranting in here,sambil2 fikir..why is it so hard nak bagi this nurse peluang..Bolehlah..
hidup hanya sekali,peluang pun bukan selalu ada..


          Haha, Mungkin if someday this nurse dapat join Aid mercy ke negara lain untk beri bantuan kemanusiaan agaknya terus pengsan..Haha..Im pretty serious about this..Like I said, Peluang bukan selalu ada...One of my friend said " Pintu yang U nak masuk tu tertutup,tapi ada pintu yang lain terbuka untuk U ".. Nostalgic, masa tu my sister backstabbing me, dengan bagitau my dad to cont my study dengan  form 6 instead of enter the politeknik sarawak.


           As far as I know, This nurse boleh take care of herself better..Maybe she got some of not nesscesary attitude , but all of you know me better..Hope someday Allah will open their heart to RESTU my pilihan..



May Allah Bless..Amin..

Nurse..Deep Inside Part 3

Salam ....

               Its been awhile..bukan pasal visiting my blog tapi baca balik all stuff yang ditulis and tertiba pula terasa nak sambung balik the story pasal ni nurse..Masuk part three oredy..

               This time , im gonna  talk about this nurse very good friends while study in there..Well, this nurse ada tujuh sahabat rapat untuk bergembira, bersedih, buat krja jahat,bodoh dan yang sewaktu dengannya..


               Lets start with the eldest one in our friend's group..She's seorang yg......... matang ? not  really....kebudak-budakan? tak juga...She is,


               FREDDY..This nurse is the only one yg call her with that name..She someone yang i just dunno how to describe her personality.. She come from a very complicated family background.. (Dont worry la freddy,its not yg im going to jual ur story. She's the only daugther in her family..Katanya,dia xpernah ada rasa ada adik perempuan,so she feels so enjoy bila together with us.Dan yg termalang selalu dibuli is me and Natalia (the youngest )..Not really bully,maybe its just how she shows her kasih sayang ..Ya, i know Freddy..I love U tooooooooo much..I treat u as my other sister jg..


             The 2nd  is Vella.. Im comfortable with her..She's the 2nd older in our age rank.She......Kecil je...I guest her height hanya sampai bahu this nurse.HAha..Everytime keluar ke mana2 she akan pakai  her 4 ke 5 inch heels..suka shopping, dont mind the price tinggi ke rendah ke,as long as she love it,she'll buy.. Yang best pasal her is,kalau nak cari apa2 barang ke, just bagitau her how much your budget, she will help U smpi dapat..what I love about her is she never looked down to other people yang kurang berkemampuan like me..Well,Vellaa..Muah muah for U..

              And, Ai Chan..How do u do..My ex roomates..never thought yg akan tinggal satu bilik dengan her masa study dulu..How to describe her aa? she,lebih kurang dengan yang diatas.One thing is, this nurse xpernah nmpak dia marah..Provoke la mcam mana pun, she'll never teriak or pukul U..This girl jenis berani..Bila dia cakap,dia buat..Dia akan buat , in any circumstance..Flying kiss for U.


              Then , Yayan..Same age as me..Mysterious girl..Yeah..Nobody knows her private things like her BF,or who's her scandal..Lebih kurang la..She is good..Sweet girl, kind..All good thing ada dengan dia..Apa yang best tentang her is, She knew any famous song..We, her friends slalu terkejut..haha..a simple things.


              Come next is Syaz..Yayan's roomate..She alim..hmmmm...Solat tak pernah tinggal,aurat dijaga ,smua yg sunat2 dia buat utk tambah pahala bikin beli tiket masuk syurga..Of course she kind, nakal (in good ways ),I respect her.The way she behave,the way she talk..Just assume,she is a good wife candidates..Muahuhu..I help U tambah credit..


            After is Bella..She....Hmmm..She....I dunno if she ada holding any grudges with me sebab, she always tried too look good than me..especially kalau pasal dressing2 ni..Dont get mad aa...Mungkin kut slalu decline her suggestion and do what this nurse selesa..I confess here,U re far better than me Bella..I spoke from my deep..Snack pagi petang siang malam sentiasa ada untuk kami..Yeah,i know..How i hate Ur punya some Bad habit,Still like U..


            Second last is Natalia the youngest..Kalau gaya budak2 just serah pada her..Memang this nurse tabik..Kedekut ranked 2nd after Freddy..Natalia,U got gorgeous body, U r pure..U r just the way U are..Kenapa this nurse sayang U ..Because U r my friend la..This person, is the one yg paling last this nurse feels comfortable with..4th Semester..Mungkin sebab jarang kasi luang masa with U, tulah sebab jadi begitu ye...


           And the last but not least ,This nurse a.k.a IE..I dont really know myself..Freddy said im weird, vella said, im jenis ringkas dalam berpakaian..Ringkas macam mana pun I dunno (in my word -selekeh)..Saz said Me as lemah lembut bila bercakap (????)..Yayan cakap, im funny..Bella's opinion i dunno..Natalia also..What i know, is Me is just being myself.. Tak kiash dengan pandangan orang.. Mungkin sebab inilah kot payah sangat nak jumpa lelaki ajak bercinta....Dont have an idea..


 I guess that all for now..Lets CONT at the other time...

Assalam..

Its all about my health..

        I just tired recently.. Tidur pun rasa penat, buat kerja ringan pun rasa penat.. Bila tengok muka di cremin pun nampak lesu, mata pun bengkak..When i said that to my sister, she said yang I just slept a lot..Somehow, its hard to makes people understand your condition..

        Started last month, i got tired, losing my weight 2kg just around two weeks, without doing any exercises or taking any pills..sometimes i lost  my focus, feeling dizzy and blurry. With my hand yang started tremors, I know yg my problems coming back..Its just have been six month i stopped taking medicine..Haiyoo,

        Then I took my rountine blood examination.. See, betullah.. My TSH dropping and my FT4 increased again..AGAIN ?? !!! Its so troublesome tau..

       Then, i goes to Klinik kesihatan and the DR's prescribed me the medicine again..Arghhh... At least i dont have to take those propranolol  so far..Syukur..But the things is, sebelum ni I just have to telan the ubat, 4biji..This time I;ve to telan those ubat sebanyak 8biji once a day ..

       And me, such a good nurse langsung xmakan the ubat..its not yang I dont want to..tapi its hard to compliance walaupun i just have to take those ubat sekali sehari.huhu,my alasan because of the RAMADHAN..such a silly excuse isnt it..

       With my great act, i skipped my reviews this month..Muahaha..Sebab malas mau dengar the DR bla bla tu me.. Tunggu lah sampai I compliance the ubat baru go to klinik kesihatan..until there's a changes to my blood test result..Bukan sebab yang im tryng to memandai2,tapi itulah kebenarannya...

        Hmmm.........................

       I dunno what to membebel lagi here, so i just stop here..its time to sleep.. Take care of your health and it will benefit to ur entire life..Mangkali la kali aaa...

   May ALLAH Bless us all....